Daily I cry out to God, each prayer as desperate as the one before
He is within me, I believe this with all that I am
Yet I feel seperated, alone, and scared
His presence in my life is quite evident
He cares for me like only He can, I still want more
I want to know Him, to love Him like He does me
I need that peace that surpasses understanding
Why do I not rely on Him alone?
I want to relinquish it all, but I still hold on
By now I should be eating The Bread, here I am eleven years later, still on milk
Fellowship is hard for me, for trust is scary
I am in neutral, longing for drive
Why can't I just shift?
He is all I need, I know this, but I don't live it
I have been truly blessed, but still I cry
I rob Him of what he desires from me, and I don't want to
It seems so obvious, so simple
I feel ungrateful
I want to be a shining light for Him, I am but a mere flame
I see His works in my daily life, but I want to feel close to Him, like a daughter to her father
What am I doing wrong? How can I change?
I ask Him all the time, but no answer
I don't understand, I can't do it without Him
Is there something I am missing here?